Sadness and Depression

This last week has been a real emotional roller coaster. I am having a hard time finding balance with work and finding TRUE time with God.
I am always to exhausted to read God's Word, I read two verses and fall asleep.
My feet are so swollen and hurt so bad by the time I get home I physically can't do any exercise.
I know what I am suppose to do but can't seem to muster up any physical or emotion energy anymore.
Thanksgiving (yesterday) and today I have been feeling so homesick. Meaning I miss family and friends. The last 17 years it has been just Bryon and I. Mom, Bryon and I the last 6 years. I was so depressed this year because NO ONE called me? I have a huge family!!
I guess I have pushed everyone so far away. Now I am suffering for it. There is no one to blame but myself.
I cried out to God to forgive my selfishness and to help me love again. I have so much sadness and anger that I shut out His light.
I just want God to fill me up with His Joy!

Proverbs 12:25
 Anxiety in a man's heart weighs him down,
    but a good word makes him glad.

Deuteronomy 31:8
 It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”

2 Samuel 22:29-51
 For you are my lamp, O Lord,

Thanksgiving Day, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving!

The sky is filled with sunshine today. 

Psalm 7:17I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness and will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High.

1 Chronicles 16:34Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; his love endures forever.

1 Thessalonians 5:18In all things, give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus toward you.